Shit dude. That would financially ruin me after the first payment. (I don’t get paid in dollars nor euros, but the company does.)

What job do you do now? How bad was the pay cut? (Or unexpected pay boost)

Do you still take Ritalin? I’ve been taking Vyvanse for a year now, switching from a Concerta generic. I’m indifferent, but the lisdexamfetamine lasts wayyy longer. Also I get this strange general sense of “something great is going to happen very soon”.

Venlafaxine and Buproprion helped major with anxiety and somewhat with depression. Instead of getting anxious, I now get grumpy.

Before it was “oh shit, oh fuck”, now it’s “ugh shit, what fucking now”

Saw you were sitting at 0 points. Who tf downvotes someone’s thoughtfully written non-hostile comments?

Btw thanks for the brain wave info. I thought that was like, hippie stuff, but no it’s like, legit science.

yeah, when I take breaks from it/run out

Any tips on how to wake up during nightmares

I’ve had vivid nightmares for the last 10 years due to antidepressants and on/off cannabis use.

Even if the situation is terrifying, I eventually found peace in knowing I’m getting rest.

Let’s say I wake up now and can’t go back to sleep. It’ll be what, like 2am/3am? Now the rest of my day is fucked. Was it really worth waking up?

in capitalism I wanted to be an astronaut, but now I have a substance abuse problem and write spaghetti code for a corporate machine that would not give a shit if I dropped dead tomorrow.

I’ve seen dozens of videos (not even looking for them, they just pop up on my timeline).

A bunch of buildings turned to rubble

A red crescent ambulance

People speaking Arabic in a distressed tone.

Sometimes, they pull a survivor out of the rubble

Other times, you hear family members of the deceased scream in a way that you never stop hearing in the back of your mind.

I’ve seen a lot of of these videos long before October 7th 2023.

There is a growing consensus

Like, I legit want to cry that even getting to this point has taken so long.

“Consensus” is such a fucking slap in the face of anyone who’s been paying attention, even if accidentally.

Dropping white phosphorus on civilians, bombing entire villages off the face of the map, sniping children in the head and executing journalists.

This is not a spectrum. This is not even binary. They are committing genocide.

There is a growing consensus that the pope is catholic.

I gended so crazy last night it was wild

Is this a face-to-genitals matching game

My brother used to take Ambien

Like, too much Ambien. I heard that in the USA, you could only get 3-5 tablets or something like that prescribed. Over here in ZA, you can get a 6 month prescription with 30 tablets each repeat.

We shared a bathroom. On multiple occasions I’d walk in with the floor coated in piss. One time, I walked in while he was lying face down, dick out, on the floor completely soaked in urine.

I helped him up, he said something incompressible and tried to get him a fresh pair of clothes.

Another time he woke me up to convince me he could make things levitate. I said “nah man you’re on Ambien, go to bed”, but he kept insisting. Eventually I just caved so I could go back to sleep and watch him unsuccessfully levitate his keyboard.

I played cod once after taking 10mg. I felt like I was in the fucking jungle. Heart pounding, terrified, adrenaline flowing, tunnel vision. Fucking dominated that match though.

I then blacked out and I told someone who I haven’t spoken to in years, that I was in love with them. (I wasn’t). Deleted the message when I woke up. No follow ups, thank god.

The memories are either blackout or vaguely choppy.

Weird-ass drug. Wouldn’t recommend unless you really struggle to fall asleep. You gotta take the pill and immediately jump into bed and try to fall asleep or else face the consequences of shit you don’t remember doing.

Remember to do that before pissing on it

That smoke is white phosphorus

“Please don’t kill me”

“Stop being antisemitic”